A New Year...

Your success and happiness lies in you. Resolve to keep happy, and your joy and you shall form an invincible host against difficulties

Helen Keller


Well I have managed to make it through the festive period. I won't lie and say it has been easy, I slipped on several occasions. My fear set in and I found myself thinking the worst. I did, however make it through with a smile on my face when Olivia was around but with a few tears when she wasn't. Tonight I am waiting up to see in the New Year as this is what O wants to do. It's another wee moment to mark. She is old enough to want to do this and have the awareness of it all and I am celebrating it as I now value so much more the importance of such change.

I had chemo today and saw my consultant. She told me that I will be seen by a doctor to discuss ablation therapy. It would mean travelling to London if it were to happen so I can look forward to a wee trip away. I have a scan coming up and this will determine whether or not this treatment is a viable option. In the meantime I have to keep positive and hope for the best result but prepare for the possibility of something different.

Anyway it is a new year and I am hopeful about it. I have new potential treatments and I have to have faith in the possibilities that they bring. I wont give up on hope and I will try to live my life as fully as I can, I wish that had been my resolution many many new years ago but I am grateful that I can say it and mean it today, that's what is important. So here's to a new year and here's to living however tough it may be at times.