A quick note...

I am going to write a short one. My health is poor so I will say what I can. I am due to start radiotherapy on xmas eve and I have been prepared for the fact that it may not work, there is a good chance the end is quite close. This is ok and I have acceptance. Im in a great place as I am both ready to live and at peace with the alternative. The steroids have reduced some of my symptoms but the actual cancer cells are playing havoc with me and my quality of life is at rock bottom. I have great people around me and my household is peaceful that's all I need right now. Christmas is inconvenient but I smile as I write my will on Tuesday night as people are out stressing over stocking fillers, such perspective to be gained. I want to thank everyone for their kind wishes and genuinely mean it when I say don't be sad.  one day at a time.