Tuesday 20 May 2014

Share and share alike...

Keep it simple



I received a message from a girl who I don't know tonight but who has been reading my blog. God I love the power of sharing. She basically advised me that while the Budwig cancer regime is absolutely genuine the clinic in Spain is not. I have now looked into this and indeed this would seem to be the case. So, here's the thing, I get to do my own research and subsequently embrace the Budwig diet (on it) but save myself a small fortune in visiting the seemingly iffy clinic. Win win, I say. Thank you Caroline for being so kind as to bring this to my attention and I in turn am bringing it to the attention of others. Happy days. P.S the Budwig diet starts soon goodbye all treats...it's worth it.

Monday 19 May 2014

Getting to the root of it...

I dwell in possibility.

Emily Dickinson


I have just returned from a lovely 5 day break with my sister in Malta. 5 days of doing nothing but reading books and enjoying the sun. I feel very rested, in the main, however my scan is looming. I am having to use all of the tools I have to keep my mind in the day and not project. I certainly haven't perfected this but it is a work in progress. I had not only a relaxing time but also an informative one. My brother in law introduced me to a new clinic in Spain called the Budwig Clinic and I have to say I am fascinated by its somewhat novel approach to treating cancer. Unlike conventional therapies, it looks beyond the cancer itself and aims to understand WHY a person has cancer in the first place. This I am up for. One of the things that struck me in the literature was the mention of the link between root canal treatment and cancer (especially breast cancer). I have had root canal for 20 plus years and I am looking to have it removed. I would say to anyone who has this dentistry work to investigate, who knows it could save your life. Apparently this is no secret in the dentist industry but they prefer not to share it! This clinic has really caught my attention and I am hoping to go there for a 2 week visit where they will run all sorts of tests and then hopefully give me some answers as to why I ended up with cancer at 39. They then offer a lifestyle plan which could potentially add some time to my life. Of course it's not cheap and I have decided to try to do some fundraising to make the trip possible, so anyone who has any ideas on this please get in touch. It is yet another avenue to be explored and it keeps me from getting too down hearted about my future. Since my return home we have had some sunshine so I am making the most of that. I will spend the next couple of weeks before my scan result enjoying the small things and investing time in my plans for a trip to the Budwig clinic. I cannot afford to get ahead of myself and like I always say I will hope for the best but prepare for the worst. Fingers crossed.

Sunday 4 May 2014

May it be good...

May, she will stay
Resting in my arms again


Paul Simon,  April Come She Will

I love the month of May. It brings hope and promise. Promise of the summer ahead, sunny days and good feeling. May is a time for optimism, blind, eternal faith. Sadly it often tricks us and the promises are unfounded the rest of the summer but I still love it. It sums up the way I feel. I kind of know that my future could be a broken promise but I refuse to believe it. I am currently doing work in my garden and I'm very excited about how it will look soon. I'm equally working on my mind. This is the key to keeping sane. Although the sun is hidden this morning (but I am hopeful for cloud dispersion) I have been up since six. Just doing little jobs around the house and generally feeling good. I don't waste days anymore. If I wake up early and don't feel too crap, I get up. I do this because I value the day and I especially value the ones where I feel good. Adverse circumstances, including death serve a purpose. They serve to remind us to live and take what pleasures we can. So I attended a funeral on the cusp of my very special month and I tried to remember that no matter what, it is our duty to live to the fullest capacity. The sun came out for Jordan on Tuesday and hundreds of people said goodbye. Experiencing the death of someone so young brought me hope, hope that there is something else once we die and in a way it chipped away some of my fears about my own future. I am due a scan and I will be on a rollercoaster ride again the next couple of weeks but I refuse to be scared. May is the month for optimism and for believing that anything is possible.